Dear world, you ready for me?

Why do us girls like guys so much not on some lesbo shit but why is it that they’re actions can have such a big effect on our emotions. I hate this shit. I hate that I tell myself forget guys they’re all worthless but then a cute one comes around and makes me smile I HATE it. Relationships are the dumbest things to me you’re all happy and lovey one moment but then you’re crying and upset the next. Some days I want a relationship I do. I love having that special someone who you can’t get enough of I love love and I’d love it even more if I were in it but then there’s other days that I want nothing to do with a relationship. I don’t want to work for love and I’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing. For once in my life I would love to truly be in love to know that that special someone loves everything about me from my nose to my toes from my goofy laugh to my cray cray emotions I’m only human and I would love for a handsome guy to realize that and truly love me for it. I’m over people I am. I’m really scared of being fucked over so many times that it’ll change me I’d love to think that won’t happen but I know it will if people keep screwing me over i’m tired of this shit. Can I be someones everything? Can I meet a guy that for once doesn’t think I’m a dog and try to own me just for once? Can I meet a guy that loves everything about me and isn’t afraid to show it? Can I meet a guy that wants love with me and the feeling be mutual? Can I meet a guy that gives his all to me and only me? Can I meet a guy that knows what I’m worth and if he doesn’t treat me right someone else will? Can I meet a guy that has his shit together. Just for once that’s all I’ll need because that’s the guy I’ll marry I won’t let that one slip away…… prrrrobably not

Why can’t I be a cold hearted bitch? Lol why can’t I just say FTW & mean it?! Why do I have this dumb ass mentality now that I’m not willing to bust my ass for a relationship? Damn all the guys that have fucked me over you. Thanks to them I have the mentality that if it doesn’t come easy I don’t want it but then some days I am willing to work for something with someone. I’m so bipolar about this crap it’s not even cool